Messy, there is a mess all around me at this point in time, and instead of organizing the mess I am writing this post. I promise to myself I will organize it after writing this.
This is from one of my housemaid I had, and what she used to tell me about this incidence. Now I don’t meet her but talk to her over the phone.
She is going through a big mess in her life. After 8 years of marriage, her past came into the picture. Her husband came to know that she had a boyfriend before their wedding. Now he is doubtful that she might be seeing him even now, and he is not aware of all this for last 8 years. She has three kids the youngest is 2 years. She remained busy with her family kids husband and her own poor health all these years. Many times she tried to convince her husband that she is not having an affair with anyone, and it was her past, before marriage. The doubt in his brain has made it a messy thing, he is not ready to understand.
She has been doing everything for the family, without taking care of herself. All these years nobody noticed her sleepless nights, dark circles under her eyes and her messy hairs. No one noticed, her efforts to overcome their low-income status, what struggle she was having to have happy kids and healthy family. Now its even worse, she is under doubt all the time (24 hours). Still, she is worried about her kids, she wants to retain her marriage as being more family oriented. She has left her job just to convince her husband that she has no affair.
I call her sometimes only, as her husband doubts even on phone calls, keeps a check to whom she is talking.
I just wonder how is it possible that sometimes your past can mess up all your present and future. Right now she is having a really messy life, what a stress she might be going on. I feel her pain, she can’t even share it with anybody now, as she is almost captive in her own house. I pray that she comes out of this difficult time and enjoy her life again.
Let the past go, don’t be chaotic and messy with your present life.